September 11th

September 11th, 2008

I always try to write and entry on this fateful day.  Because as it has been repeated over again…Never Forget.

I will never forget.

As we are 7 years out from that day, I take it as a chance to reflect on my own life. And I think many Americans do the same. 

One thing I will always remember is September 12th, the compassion everyone showed for one another.  That sort of compassion still hits me today. 

I take this day and let the little things pass, I show compassion to my fellow Americans.  Today I made sure that I was always the last to exit the door, and if I was first…I would hold it open. 

Today is the day of reflection and I’m sure everyone feels the same.

Also on this day I think back to Eddie Saiya…a man I have never met, but I know so much about.  Frank Saiya; Eddie’s older brother was a teacher in my photography class.

Eddie worked on the 110th floor of WTC 2, at the time of the attack he was on the roof of WTC 2…he didn’t make it out.

http://www.legacy.com/Sept11/Story.aspx?PersonID=147182

http://www.cjonline.com/stories/091701/kst_disaster.shtml.BAK1

http://www.cjonline.com/stories/091302/sep_saiya.shtml

Frank ended up making several trips to New York after the attacks.  At one point he brought in part of the Towers to show the class.  Something so far away suddenly came so close.

In the summer of 2006 I was able to go to New York, but did not go to Ground Zero.  Being in New York brought it so very close and I hope to go back.

When I got home from work today I went on a hike and ended up on the beach.  While I’m looking at the mountains, the water, the sun setting, I think…this is the best place to live in the entire world.

Never forget this day, never forget how we acted as a nation, never forget September 11th 2001.

Goodbye

August 23rd, 2008

It all started 2,415 days ago, It ended 2,149 days ago.

Congratulations. 

This’ll be the last time that I think about it…
This’ll be the last time that anything you ever said to me would matter…
Cause goodbye, is just something left to say…
Goodbye…

Shit, Piss, Fuck, Cunt, Cocksucker, Motherfucker, Tits

June 23rd, 2008

It was 1989 and I was in full swing of being a 5 year old at the end of a decade.  At the same time I was making my mom buy cereal that was focused around movies that were littered with phrases such as “bogus” and “excellent”.  Yes, I am talking about the Bill & Ted’s Excellent Adventure. Besides Bill and Ted, you had Rufus…or George Carlin.  I fell in love with this cheesy 80’s/90’s classic.  Even so much that I made my mom buy the cereal just so I could get the Plastic “Phone Booth” that was glued to the front of the box.

That was my first introduction to Mr. Carlin.  I also then connected the dots to the “new” Mr. Conductor of Shining Time Station.  How could the guy who wrote the ”seven dirty words” be hosting a kids show on PBS?  Answer…because we had no idea.

But a few years down the road I connected those dots.

My neighbor, Ryan was staying the night.  It was 1992 or 1993 and we did what any did would do at a sleep over.  Try to stay up all night long! Also watch the channel that Mom wouldn’t let you watch past 6pm…HBO.

Turning the channel to 18 at 11pm on that Saturday night, I was introduced to Mr. Conductor with the foulest mouth I had ever heard. Shit, Piss, Fuck, Cunt, Cocksucker, Motherfucker, Tits, Fart, Turd, and Twat.  To hear such language just blew my fucking mind.  But he was damn funny, enough though I didn’t understand half the shit he was talking about.  At that time, Ryan and myself started counting just how many swear words flew out of his mouth.  We are talking thousands!

Fast forward and we have three Kevin Smith movies.  In “Dogma” George Carlin played the ideal role…for irony that is…. Cardinal Glick of the Roman Catholic Church.  Then one cocksucker in “Jay and Silent Bob Strike Back”.  He ended with a role that was as left of center as you could get for Carlin.  The loving, blue collar dad in “Jersey Girl.

And here I am at the age of 24 for, and still think he is one of the best out there.  So much that he seems immortal.

 That is why, when I came home from bowling Sunday night, to find that his heart had failed, it became a huge surprise to me.  I got to know his work over the years, and caught up on everything that I missed.  Every joke, everything he did was real and brilliant.  He was the same on stage as he was off stage. Every comedian from Lewis Black to Jerry Seinfeld have a little George Carlin in their act.  He set the path for so many and set the bar so high.

He was a one of the kind, and he will be missed.  I will leave you with this…

The most unfair thing about life is the way it ends. I mean, life is tough. It takes up a lot of your time. What do you get at the end of it? A Death! What’s that, a bonus? I think the life cycle is all backwards. You should die first, get it out of the way. Then you live in an old age home. You get kicked out when you’re too young, you get a gold watch, you go to work. You work forty years until you’re young enough to enjoy your retirement. You do drugs, alcohol, you party, you get ready for high school. You go to grade school, you become a kid, you play, you have no responsibilities, you become a little baby, you go back into the womb, you spend your last nine months floating… and you finish off as an orgasm.” - George Carlin

 

George Carlin
1937-2008

 

I Want To Ride My Bicycle!

June 16th, 2008

It FINALLY got warm in Seattle. So I did what any one else would do!

I rode my bike to the beach!

 

Rock Chalk, Champions!

April 7th, 2008

National Champions, Kansas Jayhawks, #1!

ROCK CHALK, JAYHAWK, GO KU!

A Horse Rider’s Smile

February 29th, 2008

I enjoy finding new music, which is why I like this time of the year.

I got my newest issue of Alternative Press in the mail today and they have their list of “100 Bands You Need To Know In ‘08″.

I ran down the list and picked out bands that I thought I would like and here are the results:

Charlotte Sometimes
Kate Nash*
Another Day Late
Bridge and Tunnel
Grand Old Part
Georgie James
Vampire Weekend*
The Action Design*
Katy Perry

*= I have heard of, just never listened to them much.

So that’s the list!  I will check them out, write notes, listen and then re-blog about what I thought of them.

With that said, check out Suzannah Johannes.  Very folk like, but something with her voice I totally dig it.  It was a great find for me!

Okay, now off to listen to music.

Smoke

February 17th, 2008

I shouldn’t care, but it strikes me in the same way Dante in Clerks finds out about his ex’s engagement.

6 years since it all started, 1 year of that was a relationship, 3 years following I was sent into a tail spin where I lost my grip and my innocence.  I’m okay with everything now, and I am completely happy with who I am with now.  And this is why I shouldn’t care about this.

My intuition always chimes in perfectly when it comes to her, it’s almost a 6th sense sort of deal.  Needless to say I have had past relationships on my mind lately. Pretty much because a good amount of them are getting married.  I hadn’t heard from her in awhile and yes, I am guilty of thinking about her the other night.  I check her facebook in the morning and her status changed on Valentines Day, to engaged…

Reading this gave me a strange feeling. Partially because I was hoping to beat her to the punch, I can’t explain why else.  It shouldn’t of had any effect on me.  But I had to get out, I took a drive down the coast.  I guess I had to remind myself about how better off I am now…and how I am better off.

So I got home from my drive, and left comment, simply saying “congratulations”.  I guess the biggest problem is there has never been closure.  I’m like Rob in High Fidelity when he runs through his Top 5.  I need that closure and I never had that with her, odds are I never will.

 I’m okay, and that’s life, right?

 Throw It On The Fire…

Is There A Way Out

February 11th, 2008

Who’s ready for summer? I AM!

The apartment search is still going strong. I also booked my flights for my next Kansas visit. April 25th to May 5th. Should be a blast and hopefully I can witness a good ole Kansas thunderstorm when I’m there.

I am also revamping my beforewespark.com, It has needed a huge update since I moved to Seattle. I am working on a new layout plus uploading tons of new pics. Pretty much I’m going to try to start cashing in more with my photography.

That being said, I got an e-mail from Matt Pryor (of The Get Up Kids/New Amsterdams) today. Looks like I will be doing some promotions stuff for The New Amsterdams next month when they come to Seattle. Goal is I will be able to take some pictures of their set.

Well I’m off to relax and start a new week!

I Will Follow You Into The Dark

January 7th, 2008

Between 2001 and 2006 I worked at a little grocery store in North Topeka called Falley’s Market.  The kind of grocery store where you learn a lot about your customers.  You know their faces, names, hobbies, and more.

Almost nightly Dan Falley (no relation to the stores namesake) would come in on his way from work.  He owned and operated Dan’s Guitar Shop on Kansas Ave.  He did more then just sold guitars, he made them.  He thought people how to play them.

He would show up at the store in his mini van (usually jammed with musical instruments) and talk music with Taylor and I while shopping.  He ended up hooking Taylor up with a pretty good guitar case and some peddles, and I think even an acoustic.  When I told him I was looking into buying a bass he would keep me posted on what he had in stock.  Before leaving the store he would always sign his checks with a “Dan’s Guitar Shop” pen.  He always managed to leave these pens behind…Free advertisement?  Anyway some of these pens always would make their way home with me at the end of the night, along with rubber bands, receipts and whatever else.

During my TM2 (Topeka Music Movement) days Dan came to a few of our meetings.  Even after one meeting at the Celtic Fox we got to see him play guitar.  That man was amazing at playing the 6 stringed instrument.  He later put out a CD of music he had been putting together over his 35 years of playing music.  He made a myspace and friend-ed me on it to still keep me up to date and I would do the same for him.

On one of my trips to Kansas I had ran into Dan at Falley’s.  I told him I had moved to Seattle and he wished me “good luck”.

I went to the grocery store here in Lynnwood tonight.  When I get home I have the following IM’s waiting for me from Taylor:

Taylor: did you hear about dan?
Taylor: ???
Taylor signed off at 9:07:37 PM.

I went CJOnline to check the news, I normally do this first thing in the morning, but today I didn’t.

“Best guitar player in Topeka’ loses life in vehicle accident”

When local rock musicians worth their salt kicked back and debated who should be ranked as the top guitar player in Topeka, the name Dan Falley inevitably came up.Longtime friend Danl Blackwood, 53, of Topeka, said Falley was hands-down “one of the best, if not the best,” guitar player in town.Falley, owner of Dan’s Guitar Shop at 1400 S. Kansas Ave., died Sunday night after a two-vehicle crash at N.W. 82nd and Topeka Boulevard. He was 55.Sgt. Danny Lotridge, of the Shawnee County Sheriff’s Office, said Falley, of Hoyt, was driving a blue Plymouth minivan north on N.W. Topeka Boulevard when it collided with a maroon Dodge minivan being driven west on N.W. 82nd by Darrell Carder, of Holton.
Falley, who authorities said wasn’t wearing a seat belt, was ejected from his vehicle and was taken to Stormont-Vail Health Center, where he died later Sunday night.

Carder, who had minor injuries, also was taken to Stormont-Vail, where he was treated, then released, the sheriff’s office said. Carder was wearing a seat belt, authorities said.

Both drivers were alone in their vehicles.

The accident remained under investigation Monday, as family members and friends were coming to grips with Falley’s death.

Blackwood said he first played in a band with Falley around 1969 with a group known as the Chevelles. Falley played in many other groups since then, most recently with his popular band Fyrestorm.

“It’s an awesome rock band,” Blackwood said of Fyrestorm. “Anytime a band has a guitarist like Danny, it’s going to be a blazing band.”

Falley helped lead Sunday night jam sessions in the past at the Celtic Fox in downtown Topeka. He also played at other local night spots.

But it was his work at his one-of-a-kind guitar shop on the south fringes of downtown Topeka where many people knew him best.

Blackwood said he took his bass guitar to Falley’s shop for work.

“He never overcharged,” Blackwood said. “Sometimes he’d fix stuff and not even charge at all.”

Blackwood said area bands — nearly all of whom knew Falley — were planning on benefit concerts to help defray Falley’s funeral costs. Services will be at 1 p.m. Thursday at Davidson Funeral Home, 1035 N. Kansas Ave.

From his shop, Falley not only repaired and sold guitars, but also built them from scratch. He also offered lessons to people of all ages and abilities.

One of his students, Leonard Cullison, showed up at the shop for his lesson at 4:30 p.m. Monday, only to find out Falley had died in a crash.

“What a shock,” said Cullison, 80.

Cullison said he decided to take up the guitar about a year ago and was referred to Falley as a possible teacher.

Falley proved more than knowledgeable and patient in his guitar teaching, also talking about the finer parts of the instrument with his students and demonstrating “what could be done on the guitar,” Cullison said. “He was a marvelous musician.”

Falley’s sister, Colleen Wallisch, 70, of Hoyt, said music was her brother’s life. Falley frequently ran lights and sound for other groups and would play guitar as a fill-in for bands when needed.

He was 10 minutes from home at the time of Sunday night’s accident, Wallisch said.

“He had a serious side, but he also had a fun side,” she said. “No matter how things were looking, he was always upbeat about it.”

Said niece Janette Harris, 34: “He really was an amazing musician — I mean amazing. He had talent like very few had. You talk to just about anyone and they’ll tell you he was the best guitar player in Topeka.”
I was and in total shock.  I checked the other new outlets, KSNT and WIBW had it front page with videos.  I checked Dan’s myspace and left a comment like many others had.  I wish I could be home to say goodbye one last time, but I have the bittersweet “good luck” blessing from him.

 

I thought about, what if Falley’s was still open? Would he of stopped by to get groceries? Maybe then that car wouldn’t of been there to run the stop sign and hit Dan? 

Dan, you were a very talented man, and you will be missed.

I still have a “Dan’s Guitar Shop” pen at my desk at work…and I will be using it all day.

How I Spent My Summer Vacation

December 30th, 2007

Belated Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!

I am currently flying across a very snow covered Midwest.  I just spent 11 days in Kansas and I’m killing time on my soon to be delayed flight back to Seattle.

The captain just came on to notify us that we will be passing through the jet stream.  This means head winds of 200 plus mph!

This visit to Kansas was very different from my past two.  For start home was not home.  When I visited in September I spent 3 days of my vacation moving my parents out of their house… the house I grew up in.  They ended up getting a much smaller place in Valley Falls, Kansas.  You might be asking yourself, where is Valley Falls, Kansas?  It’s in the middle of fucking no where!  It’s located 30mins north of Topeka on highway that averages at least one fatality a year and is littered with dead deer…This is my new “home”.

One top of that, this visit didn’t have it’s normal “Colby’s Last Night In Town” party and no Boobie Trap also.

Instead I spent the first day with Sarah and met up with Taylor and some friends at Pig Skins for some cheap drinks and catching up.  The next day was with Sarah again and was spent Christmas shopping…$300 all gifts were bought.

After 4 days of traveling to different families Christmas events and one white out blizzard that took me 2 hours to go what would normally be a 30 minute drive.  I had 5 days left with Sarah.  Christmas eve we went to Wichita and woke up Christmas morning to find “Santa” had come and opened up gifts.

Sarah and I caught an afternoon showing of JUNO and it was amazing.  This is the second time I have watched this movie.  First time was a free screening a few weeks ago.  I love it and I can’t wait for it to come out on dvd.

The next days in Wichita were filled with adventure and bowling.  We took a trip to Lawrence on Thursday.  Where I promptly spent nearly $100 on vinyl and cd’s at Love Garden.  That place seriously owns at the record store business.  We had lunch at Papa Keno’s and did some other random hanging out on Mass.  By the time we started to head home snow storm part 2 decided to come.  It wasn’t as bad as the first, but still a major pain in the ass.

Update on the jet stream…we just hit it.  It’s going to be one bumpy ride!

The last full day we trucked it up to Topeka.  This is where we froze our little fingers and toes off in the sake of photography and maybe some ghost catching.

We headed to the old Topeka State Hospital.  I had never been there, but I had heard stories about how it is very haunted.  It has been vacant for over a decade and is the home of well over 100 unmarked graves.  This is the hospital where insane criminals were sent in the state of Kansas.  Took a good share of photos and headed to the traditional Mennigers for us.  We always end up going here.  It is another old insane asylum but has only been vacant since 2003.  It is on a hill the overlooks the city and it is a pretty cool.  Side note:  one of the Carpenters spent sometime there.

While walking around and the sun quickly setting we were following the footsteps in the snow of some deer and cats etc.  A cats foot prints led to a hole in a door to a building that has a giant incinerator in it.  Just guessing after the million other times I had been there, the door would be locked…I tired… and it opened!

We opened the door and took a few pictures.  The adventurous side got the best of me and we entered the old building.  I started snappy pictures left and right making a quick exit soon after.

That night we headed to Spangles for dinner drove around Topeka and headed back to the “Parents” house in Valley Falls.

Sarah and I spent one last night together and she left this morning and here I am now.  In a plane decided rather I need to use the restroom or not and getting tossed around by the jets of stream.
Tomorrow I go back to work, then another day off for the new year.  2008 is here and my 2 years in Seattle is coming. 

I found myself glad to be gone from Kansas.  I go back now and things seem so…country.  I enjoy the west coast and all that It has to offer.  But I can save all that for another entry.
My battery in my laptop is almost dead and I think I might read a book. Over 2 more hours until a Seattle landing.

Jet Stream… I will fight you!